That wasn't so bad. And things are happening!

Well, the scratch biopsy wasn't so bad.

The appointment was started over a half an hour late so I missed more work than expected.  But, the pain was not as bad as some say it could be.  The Dr. used a numbing gel and shots on my c.ervix, but when the catheter passed through it did cause some strong men.stral type cramping.  I spotted for a couple of days, but nothing compared to my "normal" cycle bleeding.  I am excited to see if it makes a difference in my lining.

My cycle started right on time this month.  But, they are delaying the meds/transfer calendar for the Dr.'s schedule.  I did not start CD 1 meds on CD 1.  Instead I am starting on CD 11.  I was on Lupron 10 units for 12 days.  They lowered the dose to 5 units for 1 day then started a half dose of Estrace for 4 Days and now here I am today on the "normal" meds calendar as of this morning.

It is exciting to be "on" the calendar finally.  I have been going to Dr. appointments (5, 4 pre-contract, not counting all of the "blood fiascoes"), since March and to be somewhere track-able is exciting.  To be able to mark days off the calendar, to see progress being made, is a "WOOHOO" type of happening.  I have a lining check on the 10th and then the transfer is either the 18th or 20th, the clinic and Dr. lean toward the 20th for a blast transfer.  Then on to the 2 week wait.

Dear Heavenly Father,  I am amazed at Your works.  I am so thankful that You share so much with me.  That You allow me to take part in Your works makes me humble and in awe.  Thank You for Loving me.  Thank you for using me.  Please help me to do Your will.  That in everything: the glory, honor and praise be Yours.
Amen

My prayer for you

I have been asked to provide a letter of encouragement to a couple of special ladies going on a mission trip to NYC this week.  I searched the Bible I believe God's words to much more powerful than anything I could come up with on my own.  But as I think about what I found and the call that we all have been given, some of us answering the call and moving forward while others are still wondering "should I?", that this is good for all of us, and this is my prayer for you

Ephesians 3:14-19 My response is to get down on my knees before the Father, this magnificent Father who parcels out all heaven and earth. I ask him to strengthen you by his Spirit—not a brute strength but a glorious inner strength—that Christ will live in you as you open the door and invite him in. And I ask him that with both feet planted firmly on love, you'll be able to take in with all followers of Jesus the extravagant dimensions of Christ's love. Reach out and experience the breadth! Test its length! Plumb the depths! Rise to the heights! Live full lives, full in the fullness of God

Scratch Biopsy Today

http://www.examiner.com/article/scratch-biopsy-helps-implantation

When I met with the RE in March 2012 she mentioned a procedure called a scratch biopsy.  She had said that she did not want to get the end and think "there was one more thing we could have done".  So here we are today. This afternoon I am going in for a scratch biopsy, I will let you know how it goes.

Side Note:  We finally got he contract Friday July 13, 2012, (our first journey's 2nd "Birth"day). It is signed and shipping back the IP's lawyers today.  I started Lupron Saturday.  Things are moving prayerfully and hopefully in the direction of a baby.

Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you!
Amen.

Read the Contract

It is very important that you are aware of what you are asking of the other party and what you are agreeing to do.  This has been an issue of much concern and heartache.  I have been “lightly accused” of wanting my own way, “Heidi wants her own Dr and not yours as she wants someone to look out for her interests”.  I was told that the IP’s had “really gone along with everything so far”.  “Can’t you agree to …” The items I was being asked to agree to were already in the contract, the IP’s just hadn’t read the contract. 

I mentioned some of the items/requests/restrictions to the IM and she responded we are not asking that of you, that is attorney “C” putting those in the contract, which is just “fluff”. *We aren’t restricting your travel. “Hairspray?” “I haven’t read the contract as deeply as I should.”  If you are agreeing to and submitting a contract that contains specific items in a legal and BINDING contract then you are INFACT asking and/or agreeing to the items, not your attorney.

The frustrating part was, I asked for was a Dr that knows my health history, he is number one in the area, and a hospital half as far from work and home, but has the same level of NICU care. But,… I also said I agreed to their Dr of choice (a friend) as needed and I even agreed to go to their hospital of choice but wanted their RE to pick the OB/GYN, neither my Dr nor their friend has privileges to deliver there. *I did ask to be able to travel to see my son at school 3.5 hours, 200ish miles, away (they did not want me to travel more than 150 miles) and to visit my parents for Christmas because their health restricts their travel.  I also asked to be able to Blog my journey with no mention of the IP's identity, just about my experience, nothing of their experience.

Restrictions/concessions are in the contract but the IP’s hadn’t read it yet???  I had agreed to their Dr or hospital, they could not have both because of Dr/hospital privileges, not me. Had their Attorney not told them? Was she telling them I was just being difficult, had they not asked their friend if he had privileges at their hospital of choice?

Read the contract.  Know it.  You are signing it, you are agreeing to it.  I know and agree to the “crazy restrictions”.  Do you??

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am so thankful that You love me, more than I can comprehend. That You believe in me more than I believe in myself.  That You have done everything for me even though I only deserve it because of what You have done for me, not because of anything I myself have done. Please guard, guide and direct me.  Your will not mine Father.  Please bless this journey. 

Amen