WOW
One month old today!
I am so blessed to have been able to do this surrogacy. God is so GOOD! I am blessed everyday. Last night at our ladies small group got together for a monthly meeting. We studied God's love and how to make an invisible God visible through our acts of love. That is all I want to do, share God's love. Most days I am certain "my" attitude blocks what I want to be seen.
I love that the mother of this baby has God's story to share. I Iove to hear her stories of peoples' reaction to sharing it. It makes me cry tears of joy at how God is being seen. This was something that I struggled with. I did not want people to be looking at me. The attention made me uncomfortable. I liked it at times, but most times I wanted to be invisible and God be visible. He deserves all the praise and glory.
Please pray that His story continues to touch lives. That He is made visible.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Recovery
God is so GOOD!
My recovery has been an act of GOD.
I returned to work the Monday following surgery. Everybody, but my boss, told me it was too soon. As I stated in the beginning of this journey, work has not been supportive in any way.
I was amazed at how much walking hurt the first time, and the several times after that. But, I was more amazed at how quickly the pain stopped and my energy came back. The doctor let me go home Thursday. It was great to sleep in my own bed and snuggle with my husband again.
I started pumping at the hospital but found it much easier to do at home. I was able to give the intended parents a couple of weeks supply of milk to supplement the formula.
I find it hard to believe there are people that don't believe in God, when I look at the the all the different jobs my body can do.
Life quickly returned to the normal pace.
My recovery has been an act of GOD.
I returned to work the Monday following surgery. Everybody, but my boss, told me it was too soon. As I stated in the beginning of this journey, work has not been supportive in any way.
I was amazed at how much walking hurt the first time, and the several times after that. But, I was more amazed at how quickly the pain stopped and my energy came back. The doctor let me go home Thursday. It was great to sleep in my own bed and snuggle with my husband again.
I started pumping at the hospital but found it much easier to do at home. I was able to give the intended parents a couple of weeks supply of milk to supplement the formula.
I find it hard to believe there are people that don't believe in God, when I look at the the all the different jobs my body can do.
Life quickly returned to the normal pace.
- kids
- work
- church
I would do this again and again. This journey is a BLESSING. I am so thankful to God that He LOVES me this much.
Praise GOD!
Please continue to pray for the parents and their beautiful baby.
Monday, July 26, 2010
41 Weeks 5 Days
Well July 12 was the day to check in to the hospital. We went a few hours early because I thought I was seeing signs of things progressing. Nothing was happening, but they kept me because it was only a matter of a couple of hours.
Being checked in early allowed me to start the medication earlier, by about 5 hours. That was definitely a BONUS. We started cytotec at 7pm and pitocin at 11pm-ish. The cramping started pretty mellow, but then moved onto very painful after the pitocin started. My first epidural was not a success. After two doses of additional meds they believed me that the first was not working properly. The second was FABULOUS. After 16 hours of labor and the baby's heart rate being elevated, her not dropping, and not being fully dilated, the Dr. decided that a C-section was the baby's best option.
I have not regrets that it ended up with surgery. I was hoping in a small way that it would go that way to begin with. This allows me to heal from surgery instead of delivery.
It amazed me how fast the nursing/medical staff moved. They gave 10 minutes for prep to get me into the OR. They rushed David and the kids out of the room and went to tell the intended parents what was going to happen.
I was in the OR very quickly and the Dr was there waiting for me, demanding/ordering what was to happen next. She was amazing. They went to get David and brought him in. I was already open when he got there. He did his best keeping me informed to what was happening , by way of reflection in the overhead lights. There were smells I won't label, lots of tugging and pulling, but NO pain. I just waited to hear that first cry and did allow myself to cry when I heard it.
July 13, 2010 11:44 AM 8lbs 4.3ozs. 19inches PERFECT
The staff was amazing they took pictures of the baby for me and David and then handed her to David and took more pictures of the three of us together. They gave us time to see, touch and talk to her. I got to tell her I loved her. They then took her to our children so they could see her and say good bye, before taking her to her parents.
I fell asleep and woke up in recovery with my sweet husband by my side. It was a God experience, so Blessed from beginning to end. I look forward to this journey progressing and the next one on this road.
Being checked in early allowed me to start the medication earlier, by about 5 hours. That was definitely a BONUS. We started cytotec at 7pm and pitocin at 11pm-ish. The cramping started pretty mellow, but then moved onto very painful after the pitocin started. My first epidural was not a success. After two doses of additional meds they believed me that the first was not working properly. The second was FABULOUS. After 16 hours of labor and the baby's heart rate being elevated, her not dropping, and not being fully dilated, the Dr. decided that a C-section was the baby's best option.
I have not regrets that it ended up with surgery. I was hoping in a small way that it would go that way to begin with. This allows me to heal from surgery instead of delivery.
It amazed me how fast the nursing/medical staff moved. They gave 10 minutes for prep to get me into the OR. They rushed David and the kids out of the room and went to tell the intended parents what was going to happen.
I was in the OR very quickly and the Dr was there waiting for me, demanding/ordering what was to happen next. She was amazing. They went to get David and brought him in. I was already open when he got there. He did his best keeping me informed to what was happening , by way of reflection in the overhead lights. There were smells I won't label, lots of tugging and pulling, but NO pain. I just waited to hear that first cry and did allow myself to cry when I heard it.
July 13, 2010 11:44 AM 8lbs 4.3ozs. 19inches PERFECT
The staff was amazing they took pictures of the baby for me and David and then handed her to David and took more pictures of the three of us together. They gave us time to see, touch and talk to her. I got to tell her I loved her. They then took her to our children so they could see her and say good bye, before taking her to her parents.
I fell asleep and woke up in recovery with my sweet husband by my side. It was a God experience, so Blessed from beginning to end. I look forward to this journey progressing and the next one on this road.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
41 Weeks
Today I am 41 weeks pregnant.
We had a Dr's appointment yesterday. No progress... really, unless 1/4 cm does count. We have scheduled a date for inducement, if the baby does not come on her own, for Monday, check in at 8pm. We had a BPP ultrasound also yesterday to check everything out. Everything is great! Good for baby, but that gives the Dr's permission to go until Monday to "encourage" her coming out. She is perfect, the tech called her a sweet baby. I must agree she is one of the best.
I am thinking I may hide in the balcony on Sunday, at church, to avoid all the questions that I do not have answers for and the suggestions I do not want.
We had a Dr's appointment yesterday. No progress... really, unless 1/4 cm does count. We have scheduled a date for inducement, if the baby does not come on her own, for Monday, check in at 8pm. We had a BPP ultrasound also yesterday to check everything out. Everything is great! Good for baby, but that gives the Dr's permission to go until Monday to "encourage" her coming out. She is perfect, the tech called her a sweet baby. I must agree she is one of the best.
I am thinking I may hide in the balcony on Sunday, at church, to avoid all the questions that I do not have answers for and the suggestions I do not want.
- I do not know when she is coming, "When SHE is ready".
- If my body and the baby aren't ready nothing is going to make her come any earlier.
The mommy and all those giving advice are more that welcomed to do those things and see if it rushes her along though.
The only reason I have for wanting her to come "NOW" , or last week, is the recovery time I have before we go on vacation. The longer it takes her to come the less time I have to recuperate before our trip. I am tired, but that is the only thing that gets me down. I wake up tired. How is it that after sleeping I am still tired? I have enjoyed this journey. I am curious where it takes me next.
Please pray for the Intended Parents, Dr's, and the baby. I know the mommy is about crazy waiting. Please pray for me and my family as we head into labor and recovery of this. A lot has happened. A lot is still to happen.
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