40 Weeks 1 Day

Well, yesterday was the "Due Date" and our 40 week checkup.

A lot has happened since 9:00 AM yesterday, but none of it has anything to do with going into labor.

I am currently sitting at my desk at work, hoping that the Internet will continue to "at least" limp along as it has been all week.

Our Canadian office is closed today for Canada day and tomorrow for Brian Baker day. I was told by my boss that I could not "take" Friday off because he was going out of town and the whole company could not be shut down. So I could not use my Brian Baker day on Friday. So I thought that Friday NIGHT would be a good time to have this baby, MAYBE???, because then I could use my Brian Baker day on Tuesday for recovery. Well he just called to inform me that he is actually on his way out of town right now, Thursday, and isn't planning on being in on Tuesday either. AAAHHH!

Not that I could begin to plan when this baby is coming, it was good to think that maybe that was/could be God's timing since it could have been a four day weekend. A faint light at the end of the tunnel???

Another "thing" that happened since the appointment was the posting of my cervix status on the Intended Mother's facebook page. I do not know about you, but I find that something as private as my medical information, and this information being of a very intimate part of me to be way across "THE LINE". This is information I don't even share with my mother. So many thoughts and emotions come from this. I would not have minded "as much" had she not posted my name, but she has been posting my name all over which is clearly against the contract that her personal lawyer wrote up and she herself signed. My privacy has been disregarded throughout this entire process and now for my personal medical stats to be listed was the limit. I finally had to say "please do not post my name, that is a very intimate and medical fact that I do not need 180 + people to know about me". I do not think it ended well. She left the church function before I had a chance to say good-bye. But, the status in gone. Whatever damage would be done is done.

On a side note... We (I) ran into another contract issue last week. I found that a correction I was told had been made was in fact not submitted to the courts and as the contract stands I had no legal rights to make my own medical decisions. The lawyers have assured me that the way they are "fixing" it will work, but that is not the point. I brought this to their attention a month before the court/judge signed off on it. Before I signed it they showed me in writing were it had been corrected, and then it still went to the courts wrong???

I know that God sees the entire picture. He knows how this baby is going to change the world. He knows when she is coming and how. He knows how I will survive this. I am so glad He knows. There is just this part of me that wishes I had an idea of how.