Tomorrow I go and meet with the the IM's RE. This journey, if we move forward after tomorrow, is with RBA for a clinic. I was with RBA with my first journey and RBA did the monitoring for my second journey. I like this clinic. I feel safe with them. The Dr. that did my first journey has passed away unexpectedly last year so I will be seeing a new RE. I have heard great things about this RE so I am excited.
But, along with the excitement comes a little nervousness, because of the unknown. David and I met with the psychologist a couple of weeks ago before we went on a family vacation. That is probably the "craziest" appointment, waiting to see if another person believes you to be mentally fit. I was blessed that it was not necessary to take another "test", I had taken one in November 2011. This appointment with the RE, because of my age 43, soon to be 44, and weight, I do not consider myself overweight but some might because of a BMI of 25ish... Makes me nervous. What if the RE doesn't like me? What if I am not the optimal candidate? What if I am the cause of yet another heartbreak/ache?
This IM has been hurt. I have seen only a fraction of the hurt when we talked at our initial meeting. I believe it is deep. Will I be blessed to be a part of her healing?
I am excited to get the "ok" to move forward. I am excited to see God's Blessings for this couple. I am excited to see fewer tears of pain and many more tears of JOY. Please be in prayer for this journey.
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