I am looking again.
I have been contacted by two families and have been put "on hold" by two families. The first family had to put their search for a surrogate on hold when the feeling of Inadequacies casued the IM to question herself, and ???. The second family had to put their search on hold when the IF got very ill, he has been in the hospital for nearly two weeks. In both cases the families each had children the first had two, from previous relationships, and the second family had eight children. You read that right they have EIGHT, ages 4 to 24 years old. I felt somewhat mislead by both families. The first one becasue the intended moter-in-law was driving the search more than the IM. The second family because they did not tell me about how large their famliy was until we met in person, the IM had mentioned 3 IVF babies, but not the other FIVE. The second family has 7 frozen embryos that they do not want to let go of, but when you already have 8 children you don't really want or have money to spend on someone carrying your baby, which caused pause a couple of weeks before the illness.
I am a little frustrated. I am called to be honest, I have been honest. I feel bad for both families. I do not know how else to say what I am feeling. I mean no fault or harm. I just needed to "vent".
