Rejection, dissapointment, failure

How do we deal with this as children of God?  We KNOW that He will never be ..., reject us, in our pain He is there, in our doubting He reassures, He gave His all, His everything, His only Son for us even when we were the reason a sacrifice needed to be made.

Over the past few months I have been "dealing" with things said, to me, about me.  I have been told that what I believed I was, as a christian, wife and employee was wrong.  I have failed and am failing.  I don't know where to go from here, other than to God.  I have spent many a moment, at night, in the morning, car rides; moments in the bathroom seeking (I Love my Bible app.).  I go to Him I ask what I need to change.  I ask where I can be more like Him.  I take my hurting heart to Him.  I ask how can I talk to others to get Him to them. 

I believe this is on me, it is three different men, their opinions and me, three different aspects of my life.  How can they all be wrong? I am the only common factor.  "How can I be letting God down?"  That question reminds me of a drama "The Chisel" by the Skit Guys, How can we let God down when we are not holding Him up: He is holding us up.  So I go to Him and I ask Him to hold me. 

I do not give up.  I continue to "Love them like Jesus".  Not like I would, I would walk away if that were the case, I would quit my job, I would not have finished Fuel, and I would ... 

I heard a sermon along time ago on the topic of how do we know we love Jesus more than how much we love those around us... the answer was because we have not killed them yet.  If we loved people at the capacity that we, as humans, have for love we would give up much more quickly, walk away, or "kill" them, but because we love Jesus more we hang in there.  We (try to) follow His example of love: unconditional, unending, sacrificial, merciful, gracious, undeserved, overflowing, unmeasurable...  I know I have yet to master this kind of love, but I also know that I am NOT GIVING UP! 

I AM NOT GIVING UP!
In my searching I have found several verses that I am holding onto.

Passage Psalm 39:4:
4 “Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be.
Remind me that my days are numbered—
how fleeting my life is.
Passage Psalm 69:13:
13 But I keep praying to you, Lord,
hoping this time You will show me favor.
In Your unfailing love, O God,
answer my prayer with Your sure salvation.
Passage Psalm 68:34:
34 Tell everyone about God’s power.
His majesty shines down on Israel;
His strength is mighty in the heavens.
Passage Psalm 63:7:
7 Because You are my helper,
I sing for joy in the shadow of Your wings.
Passage Psalm 65:3:
3 Though we are overwhelmed by our sins,
You forgive them all.
Passage Psalm 61:8:
8 Then I will sing praises to Your name forever
as I fulfill my vows each day.
Passage Psalm 42:5:
5 Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise Him again—
my Savior and
Passage Psalm 48:14:
14 For that is what God is like
He is our God forever and ever,
and He will guide us until we die.

I also have this drama found in the Youth Specialties Ideas Library, I have changed it some, but the idea is still there.
 
For God So Loved

“For God loved the world so much that He gave His one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16) NLT

Alternative translation
{For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world that He [even] gave up His only begotten (unique) Son, so that whoever believes in (trusts in, clings to, relies on) Him shall not perish (come to destruction, be lost) but have eternal (everlasting) life. (Amp)}

For God…

No one is holy like the Lord! There is no one besides You; there is no Rock like our God (1 Samuel 2:2)

So loved…

Long ago the Lord said to Israel: “I have loved you, My people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to Myself (Jeremiah 31:3)

That He gave…

Thank God for this gift too wonderful for words! (2 Corinthians 9:15)

His only begotten Son…

For God made Christ, Who never sinned, to be the offering for our sin so that we could be made right with God through Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:21)

That whosoever…

God isn't late with His promise as some measure lateness. He is restraining Himself on account of you, holding back the End because He doesn't want anyone lost. He's giving everyone space and time to change (2 Peter 3:9)

Believeth in Him…

The word that saves is right here, as near as the tongue in your mouth,
as close as the heart in your chest. It's the word of faith that welcomes God to go to work and set things right for us. This is the core of our preaching. Say the welcoming word to God—"Jesus is my Master"—embracing, body and soul, God's work of doing in us what He did in raising Jesus from the dead. That's it. You're not "doing" anything; you're simply calling out to God, trusting Him to do it for you. That's salvation. With your whole being you embrace God setting things right, and then you say it, right out loud: "God has set everything right between Him and me!" (Romans 10:9-10)

Should not perish…

And if anyone's [name] was not found recorded in the Book of Life, he was hurled into the lake of fire (Revelation 20:15)

 But have everlasting life…

 "You don't have to wait for the End. I am, right now, Resurrection and Life. The one who believes in Me, even though he or she dies, will live. And everyone who lives believing in Me does not ultimately die at all. Do you believe this?" (John 11:25-26)

 So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing Himself to the worst by sending His own Son, is there anything else He wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us—who was raised to life for us!—is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ's love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture: They kill us in cold blood because they hate you. We're sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one. None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I'm absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us. (Romans 8:31-39)